all calm on the western front

For some reason tonight, I feel very calm and peaceful and happy with where I am at in life, and the pursuit of my happiness. I'm not sure what exactly has changed from the last few entries about my busy busy life and the massive amount of time spent reading for classes and NOT really loving that - (still don't really love all that - but at least I know it's useful and will help me with the career - so it's not like learning how to graph parabalas back in Algebra and Precalc, when all I could think was "Oh, yea, I'm REALLY going to need this in my job later in life" ) But tonight, I'm really just happy. Coposetic even...should i know how to actually SPELL that word...I'd use it properly. True, I still have much headway to make in my life and my self-improvement missions and all of the things I wisht o accomplish - and they linger and float through my head...as does the realization that I've got projects and assignments to do and everything else...but tonight, i guess, they've just really been pushed into that backyard area of my brain rather than running through..um..the kitchen?.. (okay, I realize I SUCK at metaphors and I SUCK even more at metaphors that I've attempted in "on the spot" situations...but I figure the Kitchen is the most likely place for all of my "daily tasks and my more long term projects" to rumminate normally. This is because the kitchen is normally where you start your day, as you eat your cereal or whatever and think over your daily tasks.) It's as if they've all decided to take a holiday though, or at least, want to play in the backyard on the swingset for awhile. Affording me enough time to walk from the kitchen, into the living room, where I do my BEST relaxing. Can I just say now that I am sooo happy I have so many great and wonderful people in my life that I get to converse with often either through phonecalls, emails or actually see! Thank you all for being such wonderful and great mood-altering drugs for me. :) Perhaps i"m also excited to give myself a "dramatic" make over change of some sort that's in the works and to see peoples' reactions - most obviously my OWN. I haven't had short "boycut" hair since i was in Elementry school, and I"m thinking of returning to that look for awhile...could be interesting...Valentine's Day will hopefully be the day for the deal to occur....so I can do something fun and interesting on that day!
other than that, I leave you with Traci's parting words from this evening's study session at Starbucks. "libraries are the diva deal"